Our Time is in His Hands

Our Time is in His Hands

Yesterday, I found out that my brain tumor is growing again. It was disheartening news to say the least, but I do know that my time is in His hands (Psalm 31:15). God is good and His plan for me is good regardless of what that means for me (Romans 8:28).

It’s been an almost 17 year journey with this pesky brain tumor now. It began when I was 45 years old when I had my first brain surgery. They were able to remove it all but it grew completely back nine years later so I had to have another brain surgery. It’s a meningioma which is not cancer, but it can still be deadly. The substance of it had changed the second time and the surgeon was only able to get a small portion of the tumor, so I had to go for five days of Cyber Knife. This time, I will go for 25 days of something similar. It is so many more days since they can’t give me such high doses of radiation, because I have already had it once.

This tumor was most likely caused by trauma I endured at 18 years old when I ran full speed into a sliding door, thinking it was open. I was thrown back onto my back and it broke my nose in three places between my eyes. The pituitary region, where my tumor is growing, sits right back behind this. Many tumors are from trauma. It’s a unique place to have this type of tumor.

I wasn’t having any symptoms from it this time like I was the past two times when I was very sick. I had no idea it had begun to grow again until I had my follow-up MRI the other day.

The past three months have been extremely busy for me helping my children and their grandchildren. It’s been a lot harder to be able to study and write for my blog and social media since I have little time to myself. I love helping and being with my family. There’s nothing else I would rather do! With my twelfth grandbaby on the way, I am very blessed.

I am not sure how much I will be writing in the next few months. I love to study, write, and teach women biblical womanhood but I have a lot on my plate now. I know I won’t stop until the Lord stops me. This radiation can cause blindness and other side effects. The only side effect I had from the last one was a loss of my tear ducts working and massive headaches for a while afterwards.

If you are inclined to pray for me, I ask that you pray that I am not anxious about these treatments. They make a mask for my face and strap it tightly to the table I am lying on. Then I have to lay there still for the amount of time of radiation. I would love to have a peace about this process this time. I also ask that all of this radiation I have endured and will endure won’t cause brain cancer. Lastly, that this time will prevent the tumor from ever growing back.

“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God” (Philippians 4:6). This is the verse that has been running through my head ever since the doctor told me it was growing again yesterday. Instead of being anxious and worried about what the future holds, I lay my requests at the Lord’s feet and trust that He is in control.

“Every millisecond of your pain is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of it” (John Piper). I read this on John Piper’s site last night. It’s important through our struggles to take every thought captive to the obedience in Christ and continue to walk by faith instead of by fear.

For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.
2 Corinthians 4:16,17

111 thoughts on “Our Time is in His Hands

  1. Ms. Alexander, I love you, and I’m praying for you, and I won’t stop praying.
    GOD take care of you. ?

  2. Now this was a shocker.
    I am kind of shocked.
    I pray to God that you get well soon.
    Regarding the blog and everything,it all can wait Mrs.Lori Alexander.
    You have already have given us a lot of Biblical wisdom but now is the time to concentrate on yourself and your well being .?
    The best part of this upcoming treatment is that it will stop the tumor from ever growing back.
    All The Best and Take Care Mrs.Lori Alexander.
    You will win over this and conquer over this,like you always have.?

  3. I will be praying for you. I just recently discovered you on Instagram and you are such a light of truth. I’ve been clicking through your stories and browsing your posts and it’s just so nice to see someone who is not afraid of speaking truth, even when it might make some uncomfortable. So thank you so much for what you are doing through social media.

  4. I will definitely pray for you! As your priorities shift you very well may feel called to serve you family more during this time especially! We understand that and are thankful for everything you have taught us so far. I will keep your requests in my prayers!

  5. Lori, you have been an inspiration to all of Christian men women who read your blog. Praying you will have peace during your radiation treatment and that it will not turn into cancer and that it will go away this time.
    God bless, Kathy

  6. Dear Lori,

    Been busy myself as I have a new career, but I was saddened to hear this and will be praying for your recovery.

    Have enjoyed reading your blog daily. America would be a far greater nation if all women had your godly ideals. America desperately needs courageous older women to instruct the younger women.

    I pray for your recovery, but, am curious, when you are called to glory, whether shortly or in fifty years, do you have a successor to carry on your work of this blog?

    It would be like Charlotte, from
    Charlotte’s Web. Her departure was not the end. She too was a noble soul and a great writer.

  7. I am so sorry you have had this awful news. Please look after yourself and your family. Your ministry is always here for us to return to. You will be in my thoughts and please accept my genuine well wishes for you and your loved ones.

    I am a doctor and am wondering perhaps if you would be allowed headphones with you into the treatment, so you could listen to comforting material (sermons, prayers, hymns perhaps) whilst you have to lie still. I am fairly certain previous patients I have spoken to have been allowed this, although I practice in the UK.

  8. I will absolutely be praying for you, Lori. For peace, for no adverse side effects from the radiation, and that this will be the last time you ever have to deal with this. Take care of yourself, and don’t worry about taking some time off if you need it There is plenty of old material for your readers to check out if they’d like!

  9. Praying for you and will add you to our prayer chain, which means we will have people in over 60 countries praying for you.

    Thank you for your wonderful ministry. Godspeed.

  10. I will also be praying for you.
    Your ministry has been a blessing for me.
    I pray that God brings you peace.

  11. Lori, I feel gutted for you and your family.?My sweet Sister is fighting stage 4 melanoma cancer at this time.?Sadly it is hard on her but also so hard on her family.?
    You will continue to be in my prayers, our God is a God that will NEVER fail us.?My prayer is that you and yours will have a peace that only our precious Heavenly Father can give!?I hope you don’t mind me asking is this tumor classed as fatal?? Please notice I asked classed as…as I believe healing is in our God.
    Love & Prayers. Jilly♥️♥️♥️

  12. This tumor did not take God by surprise. He has a purpose for it and will use it to Glorify Him. Just remember, God has our problems solved before we even know there is a problem. Praying for God to continue to use you during this time. Praying for peace for you and your husband.

  13. Will pray for you as well! That you may feel peace during this time and that the treatment will work. Focus on your health and family 🙂

  14. I will pray for you Lori but i still want to ask if you’re 100% sure to go in heaven when you die and the reason why i say that is because i think that you are calvinist you keep saying that God is “sovereign” a worn never found in the bible amd also everytime that you hear a story about a husband who had fallen in sin you think that his soul is in danger like he would end up in hell if he’s not repent of his sin. Do you truly believe that salvation is by grace alone through faith alone in Christ alone and once saved always saved??? If you don’t believe that than it means that you believe in salvation by works and you have to repent by putting your faith on Jesus only without adding any works.

  15. Praying for you and also wanted to thank you for the peace you have brought to me. Like most I start my morning with you and it has become one of my favorites morning rituals with my cup of coffee and my Aussie pup (who is entirely too big to be a lap dog) in my lap. I have ordered one of your bible studies from Amazon and can’t wait to receive it. We will all be ok Mrs. Lori. Focus on you and know that we are all praying for you. ?

  16. Yes, Dear Lori, I most certainly will be praying for you. I prayed this morning over each of your requests in this post. I have upheld you in prayer many times … since the Lord led me to your blogging ministry years ago. Those prayers will continue to come before the throne of grace. His strength is made perfect in our weakness , and His grace will be sufficient for you. ?❤️

  17. Dear Lori, your posts were invaluably useful for me in a time of need as a wife and mom. May God protect and bless you very much. I’ll be praying for you ?.

  18. While I disagree with you on matters of theology I cannot help but pray this away from you. May you find strength, comfort and healing peace during this time. May Christ be with you ever moment as you walk through this valley and may you emerge victorious.

  19. Hi Lori.

    I will be a pleasure praying for you my dear sister.
    Isiah 53:
    4Surely He has borne our griefs
    And carried our sorrows;
    Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
    Smitten by God, and afflicted.
    5But He was wounded for our transgressions,
    He was bruised for our iniquities;
    The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
    And by His stripes we are healed.

  20. Praying for your comfort and healing and for peace for you and your family during this time. I’m sure that any of us would be anxious in the face of your diagnosis and treatment and I pray that you will be able to rest easy in the arms of our heavenly father.

  21. I pray you will transit this with peace, confidence and courage. Your faith will deliver that. And for us I pray that you will return stronger and clearer than ever. I know I need that, and the world does too.


  22. Praying for you. May you experience God’s peace, love, and comfort during this difficult time.❤️

  23. This is very upsetting news

    I don’t know the first thing about this type of condition, but if you aren’t having any pain…Are you sure it’s growing? Or at a rate that needs to be worried about? I feel like some hospitals maybe pushing people into unnecessary treatment to make up for Covid $$ shortfalls.

  24. Heavenly Father, thank You for granting Lori the grace that she needs, that she will not be anxious about the treatments she will undergo. Thank You for granting Lori with peace which passeth all understanding before, during, and after her treatments. Thank You for granting Lori the protection from brain cancer and all kinds of sickness. Thank You for defeating the tumor in Lori’s brain. Thank You for using Lori to teach young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, to be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that Your word be not blasphemed. May You always be glorified in Lori’s life. It’s in Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!

  25. I will pray for you sweet lady, and your entire family. You have been such a wonderful inspiration for me, and I have sent your wonderful Biblical info along to my grown daughters and friends through the years. You are in our thoughts.

  26. My mom had a brain tumor as well and it was cancerous. She never had anything traumatic happen to her ever. She had the tumor removed but by that time the cancer spread so she died when u was 14. But that is okay because it was God’s Will. Be thankful you got to watch your kids and grandchildren grow up. Praying for a recovery and Gods Will to be done in your life.

  27. Thank you for your time and heart you put into this blog. I have claimed this Psalms verse many many times in my life. You’re in my prayers and thank you for such biblical wisdom.

  28. Dear Lori,
    Your name and Ken’s name, along with the three specifics you requested prayer for, have been placed on our Family’s Prayer List. You and your family will be brought before the LORD on a regular basis by our family. Keep looking up, He isn’t finished with you yet. Update WHEN you can and know that you are very special and will be missed even if just for a time…

  29. Well said, Suzanne. My sentiments are the same.
    Lori, it is my sincere wish that the love and support of your family will give you the strength to get through this. All the best.

  30. I will be praying for you and your family.
    Your ministry has been such a blessing to my marriage, thank you very much for always speaking the truth. Blessings and much love

  31. Thanks for investing so much of your time in your work for the the Lord and his principles! Praying that you have much more time ahead of you.

  32. Oh, I’m so sorry for these sad news. I will keep you in my prayers! Praying for the best possible outcome! <3

  33. Dear Lori,

    I disagree with you on almost all points. However, I wish you a comfortable, quick recovery. Stay safe and best wishes.

  34. Dear Mrs. Lori,
    It’s a privilege to pray for you. I’m so sorry for this news, but your perspective and your faith in the Lord is an example to each of us. Praying He guards your heart and your mind through Christ Jesus, and that you feel His comfort.

    “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee. Trust ye in the Lord for ever: for in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength:” Isaiah 26:3-4

    ❤️ Praying for the specifics you requested. He is faithful

  35. So sorry, Lori to hear your news. I will keep you in prayer.
    The end of last year, I had a cancer diagnosis. The quote that has stayed with me is..’Christ woes His bride in the furnace of affliction.’
    May God bless you with His peace throughout your journey. x

  36. I just recently found your blog and instagram. I am so thankful for your teachings. I have learned so much and look forward to your post every morning. I’m praying for you Mrs. Alexander you are a blessing to so many of us. Thank you for teaching truth.

  37. Praying now for you and your family, hang in there Lori, you and God got this! You are such a blessing to us, probably much more than realize. God is going to give you strength, peace and wisdom in the days to come.

  38. I too will be praying! Thank you for being a continuous blessing to us. May the Great Physician heal you quickly!!!

  39. Oh Lori, my heart sank when I read your post. You have no idea how your wisdom has changed my marriage and life. I have a feeling that you would say it wasn’t you but Him working through you and that is true but, you had to open yourself to Him and surrender to it so I am thankful for your sacrifice. I will certainly be praying specifically for your requests daily. Please take this time to let others take care of you. And since I never seem to have the time to read your old blog, this will be a good time to do so. I have thought several times if it would possible to publish all your posts into book form. I know you can read them on your website but I fear that the coming persecution will someday find them gone from the internet. It would be so precious to have them in book form. You will be in my thoughts and prayers daily. Thank you doesn’t seem enough for what you have done for me and countless others. God bless you!

  40. Hi, I don’t know if you remember me from church but I too have had some similar problems with tumors. I have a genetic disease; I want you to know that I am praying for your recovery. God puts us in some circumstances that need a lot of patience and endurance…

  41. I’d like to echo both Suzanne and Rose’s sentiments. I will be holding space for thoughts of peace for you. Faith can carry us through many hardships, and I truly hope Christ can lend a hand and guide you toward a healthy life ahead of you. Wishing you peace, comfort, courage, and triumph in these times. We are all wishing the best for you.

  42. Lori, you and your family will be in my prayers. May the Lord continue to give you the strength to move forward!

  43. I don’t see how that’s ” well said”. Just because we disagree with someone theologically doesn’t mean we wish them ill. Why even bring it up?

  44. I am praying for you and your family, Lori.
    I’ve been dealing with a marital issue lately, and I have been handling it all on my own, but with the help of your wisdom through your blog and IG posts. The last few years when a problem comes up, I think, “What would Lori do or suggest?” I know your advice is Godly. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all of the wisdom I have gleaned from your blog. I have grown so much, thanks to your influence and God’s Hand in my life.

  45. I am a new reader of your blog, and I just love it.
    I am going to pray for your soon healing, as you said, our lives are on the Lord’s hands and He knows what he is doing. God has not finished with you my dear sister in Christ.


  46. I’m so sorry you have to go through this yet again, Lori. We will definitely be lifting you and Ken up in prayer. Please keep us informed as to specific prayer requests as well. I know that 12th grandbaby is going to bring you much joy at just the perfect time you need it. Praying for peace, strength, and for your doctors as well.

  47. God bless you Ma’am, and your husband and children all. You are truly in his hands now more than ever. Your life here on Earth has been for good so do not worry at all. Bless you.

  48. I will definitely be praying for you, Lori, and that God will give you peace and calmness through His Spirit!

  49. I’m so sad that you must go through this again, Lori! I pray you have grace and peace and that the treatments shrink this tumor for good. You are loved and needed by so many!!

  50. Lori, so sorry for this heartbreaking news. We do not always agree on things but l sincerely hope that your treatment is successful. I will pray that you have peace while enduring these treatments. It is difficult to lie still l remember.. God’s peace and protection be with you.

  51. You have impacted my walk w the Lord. Thank you for loving us despise so many hate responders. We love you and are praying for you!!!

  52. I also vehemently disagree with Lori 99% of the time but still hope for the best possible outcome of this procedure.

  53. Dear Lori,

    My friend. *tears* I so love and appreciate you.

    When I pray
    I will pray for you
    For you need His love and His care
    When I pray
    I will pray for you
    I will mention your name in my prayer.

    And Ken’s and the children’s.

    Kelley xo

  54. You have my prayers. Trusting God’s perfect plan for you. So thankful I found you on IG a few months back. I read your book and found it such a breath of fresh air. I wish Biblical truth like you share would be saturating our world and everyone would have Jesus as their savior. Bless you Lori, may the Lord fully heal you earthside so you can continue to serve your family and teach ladies the amazing truths of the Bible through the platforms the Lord has blessed you with.

  55. I will lift you up in prayer these coming weeks. May His Spirit be a calming presence with you while you undergo your treatments. I hope your recovery is quick and complete!

  56. Dear Lori,
    Today I have added this trial to my petitions to the Lord. May He grant a complete and full healing, as you continue to serve your family, and fulfill His will for your ministry. I wish I lived close as I would be happy to serve you at this time. Know your being prayed for daily by me and many, many others♥️

  57. Our prayers will be constant for peace and healing. May our previous Lord minister to you and your loved ones during this time!

  58. Mrs. Alexander,

    As soon as I read the first couple of sentences, I immediately began praying for you. You are a Light in the darkness. I am believing in agreement with your requests and have prayed for God to preserve you and your voice for years to come. ?

  59. Saying a prayer for you. Thank you so much for your constant steady encouragement, it has meant a lot to me over the years, even though I don’t usually comment. You are a blessing to so many! I know it’s not always easy, but you are so faithful in what the Lord wants you to teach. Thank you.

  60. Prayers for you and your family during this trying time, you emerged victorious before and you’ll do it again, have faith. I would like to add you to my church’s prayer list, I believe in the power of prayer.

  61. I have been reading your very thought provoking and compelling blog for a couple of years here in Melbourne, Australia, but never commented. Guess that makes me an introvert. I would simply say you can include me in the group of prayer supporters interceding for you before our Father, the God of Heaven. Thanks so much for your bold, challenging and Biblical content. It has definitely made me reconsider in a new way my many years of church attendance and teaching I’ve sat under. I am very grateful for what I’ve learned here, and wish you and your blog and books every success. I send my love and thanks along with my prayers. Keep us informed, please.

  62. I prayed for you this morning. May God’s will be done in all our lives. I can’t imagine what it must be like but I do know you! From reading your writings I know your walk is upright and close to Him. We’ll meet and talk one day!

  63. Praying for you and your family.
    Paying for steady hands and competent care from your health care providers.
    Praying the Lord will wash peace over you when you endure the radiation treatments.
    Praying this will stop the tumor in its tracks.
    Praying for you and your family to be upheld in His strength.

  64. I’m so sorry to hear this, Mrs. Lori! I am so blessed reading your Godly blog. Though I do not wish death on anyone, it is amazing how some of my Christian friends are saddened by the death of Ruth Bader Ginsburg, venerating her as a champion for women. All I see is an ungodly, rank feminist who was in agreeance and ruled in favor of killing babies in the womb and LBGTQ equal rights. I wonder if you have some Godly wisdom on this subject, for I am discouraged.

  65. Mrs. Lori,
    This was not the blog post I was expecting to read. I appreciate your honesty and forthcoming with struggles. You will most definitely be in my prayers! May peace abound, not only for you but for your family members who treasure your presence. And, may healing be yours.
    Much love to you from Navarre, Florida.

  66. Good Morning Sister Alexander,
    Your blog is truly a blessing and I pray that the Lord give you divine healing and breakthrough from this trial of your faith. So that you can continue to bless the many lives that came and will come across your blog for divine answers from The Lord. Your wisdom, experience and Good example as a wife and woman is often forgotten and missed in these times. We need your ministry around for these end times. Be encouraged and and stay strong in the Lord.

  67. I’m so sorry to hear this news. Our house will pray for you. You have made a huge difference in our lives and in our marriage. Please focus on getting well. Please don’t feel pressured to blog unless you feel up to it. We will be here when you get back all the while praying for your peace and speedy recovery. You have been an inspiration to so many people. May God bless you and your family in this difficult time.

  68. I love your book idea. I also fear that access to knowledge could be limited in the coming future.

  69. Maybe that could be a good fundraising opportunity… I’m certain these treatments are not cheap.

  70. I remember when you last went through the cyber knife treatment. I am sorry to read that you will need to undergo this procedure again…many times over. You are a strong woman in many ways, and you have helped so many of us to be spiritually strong. My fervent prayers for you Lor. And for your family as well who are your main support.

  71. Lori, I am praying for your requests and for strength for you and your family, and all the graces you can carry, to running over. May the Lord be your Comfort.

  72. Im praying with all my heart for you Lori as well as for your husband and children during this trying times. Thanks for letting God use you to change my life.

  73. Lord be with you Sister Lori. Praying for His comfort and healing in this time. You are a blessing to us young women, thank you for speaking the truth in love. We will miss your wisdom but at the same time understand that family comes first ? God bless ❤️

  74. I will be praying for your complete healing. The words of wisdom from your blog have had a huge impact on my life over the last few years and I am so thankful for it. I hope you continue in health for many more years.

  75. Dear sister lorie
    I’m so thankful for your ministry.Each trial comes to a child of God to experience God more than we did yesterday. Its in time of uncertainty that we should take the armor of God and shield of faith . Faith that God is my healer and to experience this nature of God we need to face with sickness . Surely he carried our infirmities on the cross and we can confess this in times of distress like this . Gods will for his child is sanctification and everyday the trial we face is to make me more like Jesus . We can press on to perfection till he comes or till we leave. Faith ,endurance and patience comes on facing these trials trusting in all of Gods promises .praying for your complete healing and waiting to hear the Christ like nature that was developed each day in these trials in your life . Love in Christ

  76. Lori,
    I just now read this post. I will be praying for you dear sister in the Lord. Your blog truly is a blessing to me and to many other women. From what I am reading here you have an army of women praying for you, you are loved….

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  78. Dear Lori, I’m sorry to hear about this ?❤️ You are a Strong woman in the Lord. I will be praying for you. ?✝️

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